What to say......

I know that it has been a while since posting. I would like to get this blog published. That way if this site ever goes away we will have all the memories.


There is sadness around our house again. We just buried our 17 year old cat Zac. I'm just about out of words for my children. They have seen more death in the past 4 years than any kid should have to see. I know, I know, it could be so much worse but try telling that to your kids when they have been trough the hell my children have. Zac has been going down hill for the past 6 months but Diane has held on for as long as she could.

Please understand this, I am not a cat person. Zac and I had a mutual respect. He was in Diane's life before me and at times I think he has meant more to her. Despite my lack of affection for Zac my wife and kids loved him. We had buried our old dog Bear about 4 years ago. Cody was there for that. Cody passed just over two years ago. There is no explanation for the passing of a child. For all you out there that have a strong belief in God I respect that. I'm not here to judge you or change your mind. But, unless you have lost a young child that spent 80% of his life fighting the beast you do not have a clue. What the hell could any God be thinking by taking a child away from their family?

Now after months of counseling and trying to get my kids to smile again we say goodbye to another family member. After giving Diane and the kids their time to grieve I started to bury Zac. They are all crushed. Justin told his mother " I do not want anymore pets". She asked why and he said "they will only die and I don't want to be sad anymore".

This morning Daniela sent me a text from her mother's phone. It said, "we are taking Zac to the vet". I knew what that meant because Diane was talking about it yesterday. Well, about 30 minutes later I received another text that said "he's dead". I called her and talked to her for a few minutes and tried to console her.

At lunch I got a call from Diane. She told me how her morning went which was even more of a surprise than I expected. She told me that she was stopped by the police on the way to the vet. The police asked if she knew how fast she was going and Diane said "no". The lady officer told Diane she was going 40 in a 25. First of all, Diane is sitting there with her daughter crying while holding a near lifeless cat. Diane tells her that the cat is dying and she is taking the cat to the vet to have it put down. The officer gave her a ticket and walked away. Where is the compassion?

I'm not done yet. After getting to the vet the tech listens to Zac's heart while Zac expires. They didn't even have time to administer any drugs. Now you ready for the kicker? They charged Diane $150!

My kids are learning so much. Not much of it is good.... Please don't tell me that this is part of "the big plan."