Drained...

Even though things are going relatively well right now, this is a very stressful and emotionally draining time. This whole journey is just so unpredictable it just seems to beat you down. Just when we had a goal of Cody getting his port it was snatched away from him. Now it seems like his summer is just not going to be what we had hoped for him. He may have to start chemo tomorrow if his blood is up to par. If he does start tomorrow that means he will finish this round on Saturday. The insurance finally did approve the use of the medicine in IV form. He will get two infusions for two hours each for ten days, then the doctor will reevaluate. Viewing it from the "glass is half empty" view, they could've approved the pill which we purchased through the weekend. He wouldn't be hooked up to the pump for four hours a day. I guess I should be grateful for the IV meds.

On top of all this we worry about what is in store for Cody. We worry about how all of this is affecting our other kids. We walk a narrow line and try to keep our balance. I think the camp was great for Justin and Daniela. They both seemed calmer and more understanding of all that is going on. It's still early but I do appreciate it.

I over did it a little this weekend working on the tree. My back is a bit sore so I didn't run today. I'll see how I feel tomorrow.